Let me explain myself

So, I haven't updated this sad little blog in months. Reason number one is social media. I am connected to so many of my friends through fb and Instagram that I have a hard time being motivated to upload pictures here. And I know there are 3-5 people who read this blog who are not involved in social media (my apologies, grandpa). Reason number two is sweet daughter number three. She's a tough cookie. For example, today her morning nap lasted about 10 minutes. Although she may have not even fallen asleep, she may have just been quiet for a bit. Her afternoon nap was approximately 30 minutes. So I forced another late afternoon nap where she finally took an hour nap. That's all she sleeps during the day. So two things result from that. One) a stressed out neurologically impaired baby. Two) a mom who can't get anything done. I am not complaining, it just is. So when I have a rare moment when I am not parenting, or trying to get a million things done or holding a giant freaking out baby, I hardly even think about updating the blog. It's so much easier to whine about my life along with upload pictures of my crying child to Instagram:) than this blog. 

But really, Emiline is great. She is super adorable and has quite the personality. I have been thinking about starting her on solids, as her pedi prefers, but I had decided not to start anything until she was six months, until the other day when she got very interested in my food and started opening her mouth to try and eat some. She loves drinking my ice water and got very pouty when I wouldn't share my coffee this morning. So I made some squash tonight along with rice cereal and yogurt. She loved it. She seemed like she ate a ton for her first time but really it was only a few spoonfuls.

Therefore, I guess we are starting food! Maybe it will be the key to helping her sleep better. 

She doesn't sleep great at night either. We had made it about three weeks without a feeding between 10p-5a but she wouldn't calm down last night so I fed her at 3am. Hopefully that doesn't eradicate the progress we had made. 

One of her issues that has been hindering her from sleeping well is that she started rolling from tummy to back at about 8 weeks. No big deal, but she refuses to sleep on her back and she can't get herself back onto her tummy. And I think she rolls over in her sleep and wakes herself up. So we spend naptime and nighttime running into her room to roll her back over before she wakes up too much and then can't get back to sleep at all. 

All very boring and mundane details about my boring life but know what? I really want to remember this. I want to remember how hard this stage is. I want to be able to commiserate with other moms who have a hard baby who chooses not to sleep. I want to remember this so I can cut myself some slack with the state of my house, my laundry room, and my empty fridge. 

And so I NEVER say to some poor young mom, "Enjoy every minute because it goes so fast."  Because, yes, I know it goes fast, but it is IMPOSSIBLE to enjoy every minute of parenting these young kiddos. 

Hannah and Olivia are great. They are so patient with me and with Em. They definitely are getting the short end of the stick right now and I hate that but I really have no choice. I am so grateful they have each other and play so well together. 

On to pictures. They are all very randomly out of order. 

Hannah still loves holding Emiline and Emiline lights up when she sees Hannah. It's too sweet. Em loves Liv too, but Liv can be kind of rough so Hannah is probably Em's favorite right now. 

She just looks ornery to me. She jumps out of the swing so we had to retire it. 

Matt painted Hannah's face and she loved it. Liv, our more cautious child, opted out. 

Just a cute one of Em. 

I love the following four pictures. Olivia stole my phone and started taking pictures and I love her perspective. 

She was so proud of herself for taking a picture of her toes. 

She ran into the room shouting that she had taken a picture of the potty. 

I thought this perspective was cute, and even kind of artsy. 

What Liv sees when I am changing Em's diaper. 

My four loves. I love seeing how tiny my babies are compared to Matt. 

She yells at me a lot. 

Daddy got kisses from all his sweet daughters. 

She loves sitting here. 

Ornery. 

Love. 

That's about it for now. 

Let me restate something. Em is great, all three of my girls are great. We are just in a stage right now that doesn't afford me a lot of time to do much. So I am not complaining. Just understand why my house is a mess and I never have makeup on and only wear yoga pants:)