Today's post was going to be one of two things, either a birth announcement with a picture of our new little baby boy, or the annoucement that the birth parents changed their mind and are parenting the baby boy.
Unfortunately, it's the second one (thus far).
Yesterday morning (9:15am) I called our social worker to ask a question. I said, "Hi Allison, this is Abby B, do you remember me?"
She sat quiet for a second and said, "This is so crazy, I was just getting ready to call you. You have a baby, she is going to the hospital as we speak to deliver. She isn't sure how far along she is, she has had no prenatal care, but she is in labor and she and the birthfather have chosen you guys."
We got more details which don't really need shared here but suffice it to say, we were stunned.
As the day wore on (I was at work), and Matt and I threw around baby names, our shock moved into excitement. I got the call at 4:30pm she was 9cm dialated. At 4:45 I got the next call that she had an emergency C-section and it was a boy! (Praise the Lord, we had NO name for a girl).
We went to bed feeling like, this is crazy and awesome and bring it on.
This morning 9:15am, I got the call that it looks like she is going to parent.
How crazy, 24 hours ago, I didn't even know about this baby, yet with the disappointing news this morning, I cried.
We made no plans, we didn't buy formula, or any clothes, or put the crib together. We named him, but that was tentative.
Yet, somehow we are surprisingly disappointed. I thought I was protecting myself better than this. Matt must feel the same because he decided to take the afternoon off and is headed home.
Please pray for the bith family and peace for us.
We will let you know the final decision when it comes.
9 comments:
Oh my goodness. I don't know what to say. Praying for you. I can totally understand why you would be disappointed.
I'm so sorry you are going through this. I went through a failed adoption 8 years ago. I had the baby for 2 days before the birthparents changed their mind. My heart will forever bear the bruises and scars from that ordeal. While I know God was still in control, and I can see His hand in it all now, it still hurt with unbearable pain. Please know that I am praying for you all. I wish I could give you a hug, but I know it wouldn't diminish the pain. I hope my comment lets you know you're not alone.
Praying for you all.
this made me cry. praying so much for you...every day, but especially today. thanks for sharing your heart-i'm sure that's not easy to do. love to you.
PRaying for you...that is somethign I don't ever think you can protect your heart against, but God will bless even this... May your hearts recover quickly and your joy be revived with your newest one God knows about soon!
saying a prayer for you guys!
i dont really know what to say. truth. i cant imagine the roller coaster of feelings in one day. please keep us updated.
I'm so sorry Abby. That just plain sucks.
I'm so sorry, Abby. What an incredible disappointment. Praying for your family as you wait on the Lord's timing. Hugs.
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