I scored big today in the food department

First of all, I was looking through pictures from July and August and realized that I only took pictures on three days in the month of July and two days in the month of August. I can assure you my children look about the same, but I still need to get back on the ball of taking pictures. They are just so darn cute, but we are so busy it's hard lugging my camera around.
We went to the zoo last week and I thought about taking it, but I really just wanted to enjoy the morning with the girls instead of taking pictures. It was a gorgeous morning and I opted out of taking a stroller or a wagon and it was so great that the girls walked the entire time! We were only there about two hours, but it completely wore them out enough to take really long naps (which is what life is all about at this age right?).
Now, about food. I made chickpea chocolate brownies today. I found the recipe and happened to have all the ingredients. They were incredible and I let the girls have some after lunch. Dessert after lunch makes me a pretty awesome mom.
For dinner I made spicy black bean burgers with guac and salsa spread along with roasted red potatoes and some veggies. The spicy black bean burgers/guac/salsa were a hit with the whole family even though the first thing Matt said to me when he saw them was, "So, there's actual hamburger meat in them, right?" Nope. I think we need some vegetarian nights and if you need a vegetarian recipe, this one's it. I really was surprised how much the girls liked them. Hannah even wrapped her burger in lettuce like I do, opting out of a bun.
Anyway, after dinner, I allowed them to split an ice cream sandwhich (I know, who am I??). I told Hannah if she kept eating so much chocolate, she was going to turn brown. She looked down at herself and laughed, "But mom, I'm already brown!" Then she looked at Olivia and said, "Livi is brown too!"
Don't you love it when you know you fed your family something healthy and delicious and they ate it up and everyone goes to bed with full bellies? One of life's many blessings.
My kitchen project is still going on, and if anyone around here knows of someone who could build a bench with cubbies in it, let me know. I am having a hard time finding one made of all wood for under $500.
But back to the girls. Liv had another speech therapy session today and her therapist said she was doing great so we will probably only see her one more time. Hannah has a cough so before bed I have been giving her honey. Olivia looked at me and said, "I want honey too, mom." Now it would have been unintelligable to anyone else but me, but I'm so proud of her for talking more!
Miss Hannah is verbally testing her boundries every single minute (whew, it's fun) and her imagination is hilarious. She makes up names for everyone now and one of her baby doll's name is Jemica (?). She's come up with Regga Walla among others that make no sense.
I know I've written this before, but we are at a great stage in life. No diapers, still napping, but can skip naps to do fun things, sleeping well at night. Everyone is learning to control their meltdowns. We all like painting and coloring and going on walks and going to the park. I am loving being a mom of two preschool aged kids, there's so much more freedom and enjoyment at this stage.
Last night, the girls and I even sat down for the first time ever and watched tv together! We watched some TLC (Extreme Couponing), and I really had fun talking to them about the crazy ladies! They were so into it too. Hannah even asked me tonight if we could watch the shopping again.
While there have been some interesting situations for us adoption-wise, which I won't go into, there really isn't much on the horizon. And now....I'm starting to feel like, why rock the boat? Why ruin how good this is? Will I really love the third baby as much as these two? Will it make my life so much harder? Can I really go back to getting up in the middle of the night? I've spent five months getting up between 5 and 5:30am and I love it so much, I think a new baby would put a halt to it.
I think doubts are normal, and I know Matt and I definitely want more kids. I just get nervous thinking about it. Which is silly because we've already been waiting almost a year. We might still have four more years to wait.
This post ended up pretty random and not well thought out, my apologies.

So I will leave you with this.....please pray for us. We have some changes in our future that I can discuss later, but we just need direction and peace that passes understanding. Word.