Some thoughts - some laughing

We are still wrapping our heads around having a baby. It's kind of exactly where we were four years ago around this time. Wrapping our heads around adopting a baby. Wondering how it's all going to go down (when would we get a baby?), wondering if we could love an adopted child (of course we can!), wondering if we really knew what we were getting into (we didn't!), wondering if we were for sure in the center of God's will (we were!). But being so excited because we knew God was going to be faithful in this process.

That's pretty much exactly how we feel right now, wondering how it's all going to go down (um, how is this baby going to come out??), wondering if we could love a biological child (of course we can!), wondering if we really know what we were getting into (we don't!), wondering if we are for sure in the center of God's will (we are!). But being so excited because we KNOW God is going to be faithful in this process.

Above all, we are so excited the Lord has decided we get to have three kids. Truthfully, we would be just as excited if we would have gotten a call to pick up a little baby at the hospital because we would know that whatever that story would have been would have been God's plan. Now, we get to experience a completely different experience (childbirth, yikes!) and we are thrilled because it's God's plan.

We have been so thrown off kilter here that now we just shake our heads and laugh. We have no plans anymore. We'd like to adopt again. Maybe have more than one biological kid. But we don't want 12 kids. So now....we have no idea. Are we going to actually have to talk about birth control? That literally made me just laugh out loud.
We would be completely comfortable if this is just a one time miracle and if we were blessed with another adoption. But even as I write that, I just laugh because I have no idea what's in store for our family.

We saw the heartbeat this past Friday. I have a history of pelvic adhesions and bowl obstruction from a ruptured appendix way back in 2004. My gyn had always told me to get in to see them right away if I ever conceived because of my high risk of ectopic pregnancy. That's the reason we got to see the heartbeat at only 6weeks. And he's not in my fallopian tubes. He's right where he should be with a nice strong heartbeat (along with causing some nice strong nausea:)). Yes, he is a boy until further notice:)

We are praising the Lord for His plan in any case. He has shown Himself faithful, so while I have real fears and concerns that will remain unwritten, I know He has a plan for our family.

So we are pretty early still, but since the doctor seemed so excited about the hearbeat, we figured we were as safe as a pregnancy ever is. Plus, at this point I would have posted about a miscarriage, so I might as well post about a pregnancy.

We are due beginning of July.

Longest. pregnancy. ever.

Sorry.