Ok, first you have to read this post by my friend Abby about being forgetful of the Lord's faithfulness.
Then you have to read this post by my friend Nicole about exercising her trust muscles.
Then you have to read this post by a very good writer and blogger, Lauren who almost adopted a baby yesterday.
Finally, you have to read this post by someone I just found today, who made the mistake of saying that she wanted to join the large group of people who start the adoption process and then find out they are pregnant.
Forgive me for the snarkyness of the last one. I do appreciate that they are pregnant and adopting at the same time, that's pretty awesome. Sometimes I just want to shout out "MYTHBUSTERS! Those who adopt don't necessarily get pregnant, geez!"
You're welcome for the awesome reading selections.
Alrightynow.
So here is what I have to say today.....
Actually, everyone else just said it for me. I forget to trust (and I would be willing to adopt a baby today).
I am ready to adopt again (ummm, I just said that). At least I am ready for another child and I'm feeling lost, a little bit. However, we don't have our tax return yet (yay for being audited!) which would be very important financially.
Annnnddddd.....I spoke with our agency about a month ago and as of then, there have been zero, yes you read that right zip, zilch, nada, adoptions in 2011.
I am also the same person that saw God perform two, yes TWO adoption and adoption financial miracles in the past two years and have witnessed countless others. Forgetful. Hard-hearted.
Do we stick with the same agency? Do we update our homestudy and go elsewhere (another agency, another city, another state)? Do we investigate international adoption? Do we try something private through an attorney? Does this even matter at this point since we can't even afford it?
See how crazy I am?
Forgetful. Sinner. That's me. I'm Abby and I want to be in control and make all the decisions because I know what's best. Right.
Remember me talking about the music videos my girls love? One of the songs is this....
If there's one thing we can count on
It's that God will never let us down.
We can trust everything He does
He keeps His promises.
We know because,
Yeah, the Word of the Lord hold true,
We can trust Him, we can trust Him!
Hannah was so sweet when I heard this song and burst into tears. She looked perplexed and climbed into my lap.
I can trust the Lord. He is enough.
Psalm 33: 4 "For the word of the Lord holds true, and everything He does is worthy of our trust."
I need some chocolate.
UPDATED: I just looked at Abby's blog post and we used the same Bible verse. That was completely unintentional on my part. But really awesome.
3 comments:
Well, the news about our adoption place isn't very encouraging! But remember, it's ALL in God's timing...whether you are with this place or another place, there's the baby that God has ordained for you, and none-other will do!
Thanks for the shout-out, girl. Give kisses to the girls for me.
When emotions are involved (and they always are with adoption!), it's easy to let them get the best of us. Yes, God is in control. Yes, God knows your heart and your desires. And a big YES, those matter to Him! So please, be encouragaed and take heart. Continue to pray about if the adoption path is where God wants you right now. The agency isn't the starting point, the finances aren't the starting point. God's will for you is the starting point. When He says "go", you'll find the right agency and the finances will be blessed, because it's what He wants.
As a mother of two adopted daughters, I have walked in your shoes. I know the peaks and valleys of the path of adoption. It's a road that is not for the faint of heart. But as you do know, no matter the twists and turns, no matter the timing, when we keep our focus on the Lord, it's all good! :)
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